March 18,2008
March 18, 2008
Well, my angel would be four now, but God had other plans for him so he is forever a two year old...I wonder what he would be doing right now if he were here, probablly playing with his big brother. Kyle is doing well..he is starting to really love and interact with his sister. She is a doll, I can't wait to tell her all about her big brother Gavin. Life is good, as good as it can be..Poppy is doing well and we are all just living a day at a time..thats all anyone can do. We should not take any day for granite because we don't know what tommorrow will bring.
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December 2007
December 15, 2007
Well, it is time for our 2nd Christmas without our beloved Gavin, but I know he is in heaven looking down on us. This Christmas is special though because it will be my daughters first Christmas. Kyle and Gavin became brothers to a little sister on October 30th. She is a perfect little girl named Dakota. Life has been hard without Gavin, but I belive he had something to do with bringing me Dakota. I miss him every second of the day, but I know he is a beautiful happy angel now.
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One Year Ago Today My Baby became an Angel
April 20, 2007
Today is the one year anniversary of Gavin's new life in heaven. It was a sad day, but we made the best of it. We had a little ceremony at his grave...Nuna and Poppy said some nice things and then we all sent balloons up to Gavin...oh and Dr. Will was there. It is so wonderful that Gavin is loved so much. He will never be forgotten and knowing that helps a little....one day I will see my baby again..until then he will remain in my heart and soul!
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Happy Birthday Angel Gavin!
February 7, 2007
Today is February 7, 2006, which means this would have been the day that the goosey turned three, but instead he will remain a two year old angel watching over all of us. Three years ago today I was flying down to Florida to meet my son for the first time, last year Gavin was in the hospital for his birthday and this year I am going to go back to the hospital and donate Gavin's wagon that GeGe bought him. I wonder what kind of birthday he would have wanted, probably Barney....That was the only show he really watched...we used to have to watch it over and over again because it was on demand with comcast and Gavin would say againnnn...I still have so much hurt and anger about losing Gavin...it fells like I will never be the same person I was three years ago....I can only live life a day at a time...Oh and it snowed today..our baby made it snow on his birthday for his brother Kyle! I love you Gavin - Mommy!
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The hardest day..or maybe not
February 5, 2007
In two days it will be Gavin's birthday. When Gavin was at John's Hopkin's Hospital we would take him for rides in the wagons they have at the hospital. When he was first in the hospital I would walk the halls for hours into the early morning hours. Gavin would look up at the ceiling as I pulled him and watch the florescent lights go by. He was so very sick. The halls would be empty and I would walk with tears running down my face and so affraid. He loved the wagon so his great grandmother bought him one for home. He only got to use it a few times before he passed away so it is now full of toys that Christina take to the hospital on his birthday...She is such a strong woman..I cant go back to the hospital...I cant even look at a picture of the hospital with out crying. We will go to the grave as a family...take some baloons...sing Happy Birthday to our angel who will forever be TWO...Nuna
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Blue Christmas
December 26, 2006
'Why is life so hard. I am still so angry ... I find it hard to talk about Gavin without crying...I went to his grave to fix it up for Christmas and it was full of little things the Sunday School Children had left ...letters..crosses...baby Jesus statues..I find no comfort at the grave site. I pray every night to find an answer that just will not come..I have so little faith...I only believe that Gavin loved me and did not want to leave..Everything is so hard..going to work...cleaning the house..I do not remember his voice..it is gone from my memory...I look at pictures and realize that I will never have any more..Nuna
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Last december
December 14, 2006
Last year at this time I was with my goosey, my heart aches for him everyday. I just think of all his funny faces and that makes me smile. So last year on this day I was in a hotel room with my son Gavin in Baltimore and all I wanted then was to be home with both of my childern, but how I wish i could be there with him today. I am just missing him so much this month, I guess because it is Christmas time...we had such a wonderful Christmas last year and I am so greatful for that memory...Gavin got his vacume..and was so happy..we were all happy that day..happy to be together, home on Christmas!
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Thanksgiving Day
November 25, 2006
Last Thanksgiving my grandson was at Johns Hopkins...Nuna (me) had a broken rib...my amazing sister took care of my turkey and Gavin was done with CHEMO...this thanksgiving Poppy is in the hospital getting CHEMO and my beloved sister came with the turkey....I try to believe it will be fine but its hard...My neighbors the Meade family came last weekend and raked our leaves..they bagged over 100...It was such a relief to have the done..I miss Gavin and it has been hard for the last two weeks..I do not know how to stop crying..A friend told me that Gavin could not be happy until I am happy ... I do not know how to be happy...Nuna
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